Seriously need some help.... i have been such an idiot. ?

Hey, well I started working in a bar about two months ago where I met a guy.... Who work on the door as a bouncer on a Friday and Saturday night. I think I have completely fallen for him. I have never been very confident and I'm not the prettiest girl in the world. But he makes me feel pretty and I find it really easy to talk to him even though I'm pretty shy (I still find it difficult to get the courage to start conversation with the people I work with everyday.) I can't get him out of my head, I count down the days till I c him, I get butterflies and feel really happy when I know I will c him. He is flirty with me... I think. He is very touchy he kisses my cheek, randomly hugs me, he even randomly massaged my shoulders... He has asked me for few times to go for a drink after work, but I have always had to get home. He offers me a lift which I turn down bcoz its not on his way. I don't know if he likes me or if he is just a flirty person, he is a bouncer and has girls throwing themselves at him all the time. Friday will be my last day working there as I got another which I nearly turned down bcoz I didn't wanna leave there coz off him. Last Saturday was my night off and knowing he would be working I went into hand in my notice.... I stayed for a few drinks and was a bit drunk.... I spent the rest of the night outside chatting to him and the other bouncer. I'm scared coz I don't really remeber what happened except I told the other bouncer on duty exactly how I felt bout him and when he offered me a lift I had a go at him I can't remember what I said. Everyone at work said I was a bit of a **** but won't tell me why. I have to face him Friday for my last shift and I feel sick I am dreading it so much!!!! Should I just not go in? Or should I go and avoid him and see if he comes over to me.. if he does should I just pretend nothing happened and not mention it? Or should I apologize though I'm not sure what I did? I can't bear the thought of him thinking Im an idiot@